I'm unsettled, unsatisfied, unproductive, and uncontent. I know that's not a word, but I like lots and lots of parallelism. I've let some of my home-making habits fall by the wayside, and I sure can tell the difference. Things are chaotic. Everywhere I look I see an unfinished project. Ooooh. Another un-.
I am a slave to perfection. If I don't have time to do a job "right," I choose not even to start it. I am so enthralled with all my blogging friends, that I can easily blow a ridiculous amount of time on this computer. Without a plan, I can piddle away my time doing a grand deal of nothing.
I really want to find time to write. Week after week was slipping by with nothing more than thoughts swirling and empty pages. I want to step up my Bible study time. I want to finish the twins' room, complete with the curtains I am making them. I want my kids to have my best parenting, not my hurry-up-we-gotta-go-our-lives-are-a-chaotic-mess approach. I want to schedule some family nights. I want to schedule some date nights. I want to schedule some friends' nights. I want to schedule some quiet nights. I want to order my days so that when God has a divine interruption for me, I can marvel in it, step forth in obedience, and not live like the seedling being choked out by the weeds of daily living. Anybody know what I mean?
So I've made a radical decision. Stop beating myself up about it, and
do something to change the situation. I've just reworked a weekly
schedule that will force me to be more intentional and productive. Today is day 1 of the new plan. It's going well. No, I haven't finished every bit that I had for myself today. But I've been productive. And I have myself set up for a good tomorrow. My husband is on board.
Want details? You'll have to wait. One of the elements of this new system is that I only have a couple times a day I can spend blogging - reading, commenting, writing. And that time has nearly expired. Besides, there is a beautiful hill behind my house begging to be hiked up, and I think I can round up three little partners who might like to make the journey.
Comments (11)
Who invited you to crawl inside my head and start throwing all my thoughts out?? Love you!
Good for you!!!! This sounds WONDERFUL! Even though your shortened time here will be selfishly lamented, I'm so excited for you! I do hope one of your future brief blog breaks will give you time to tell us what changes you've put in place!
Sounds like some exciting and motivating changes! I'm excited to hear about your plan.
That sounds awesome!
Looking forward to hearing more details on what works! Your re-organizing your time is the exact reason I go MIA from xanga for weeks sometimes.
It's the only way I can keep the important things in my life "important."
Wow. That's great! I'd like to hear the details of your plan sometime!
Praying for you on this journey!
I have a schedule, too:
Morning -- Get up
Later -- Go to work
Lunchtime -- Eat lunch
Afternoon -- Work
Mid-Afternoon -- Go home.
Dinnertime -- Eat dinner.
Bedtime -- Go to bed.
See how that works out?
I'll be praying for you and the new schedule. I understand the desire to make everything perfect, it tends to be the curse that goes along with creativity. I cannot wait to hear more about the new routine and how it all works out. Now if only I could make myself stick to a schedule, that would be wonderful.
Hi, I hope you don't mind that I "peek" at your blog! I am also a pastor's wife, work full-time and am involved in and on a lot of ministry levels. I want to encourage you! As I read your blog, I think you are one of the most balanced and level-headed pastor's wife I have ever "met". I read several ladies blogs - without commenting - some are in women's ministry, others are pastor's wives, others are christian authors, etc...but, you are humble, quiet and a very precious encourager. I don't know you, but I can't wait till Heaven to meet you, a real warrior for the faith.. Be encouraged! You, my friend, are on the right path. Prayers for your life, church and schedule are going on right now.
@jdkpierce - Thanks for the kind, kind words. I am storing them away in my heart for when those days when I really need to hear them again! And a double thanks for the prayers. Please stop by any time, comment or not. You're quite welcome here!